water

It's hot... why? cause it's boiling man...

Quidam

Du creux de toi
C'est bien le mal
Qui dresses tes silences.

From the void in you
comes the evil
which draws your empty words.

more... later...

Driving sideways...

Driving sideways
taken in by the scenery
as you're propelled along
And your companion
will not help you to navigate
for fear she may be wrong

Hey, this is track I just recalled, it comes from lovely Aimee Mann. I just understood what this song is about.
Anyways. Weekend is ovah, it's almost midnight and in few hours I will have to go to my place of employment and sit there on my ass for few hours with some really weird people I must say.

What else, what else. I don't know. I've been yesterday to the rave, I got really hammered, had some fun although I had some 'stomach sensations' after that plus massive hangover in the morning. Before the rave I went to some birthday. Lotsa weird posh people there, I didn't feel like I fit in, quite contrary. You know, people from marketing and public relations, VI-freakin-Ps, gold/platinum members of everything that's posh, worthless and soulless. One good thing - across the table, in front of me there was this girl with really nice breats and big decolletage.. Oh man it was sooo inspiring... mmm.... boobies...

OK, till then, bye bye.

The secret is to don't give a fsck.

Yeah, that's the big freakin' secret isn't it?
To not give a flying fsck.
Then you just might get lucky...
Or maybe no, I don't bloody know that.

Bath tub tap is okay, plummer came, installed it and it's okay. Thank god, I'm already running low on cash. The little access doors are yet still broken and I don't think it can be fixed. And I don't know where the receipt is so I cannot return it :( dang.

It's been quite busy and interesting week so far, and I'm looking forward for next 3 days.
Today I'm going to the rock concert with a friend. Backstage pass and afterparty included. Wohay!
Tomorrow I have test in Math (which I'm going to fscking fail again ;( ) and I have something aranged for the evening.. yet I still can't remember what it was, it will come to me eventually or maybe no.
Aaaand on saturday I'm going to my friends girlfriends friend birthday party and then to the rave.
I'm going to get sooo wasted. I'm already looking forward for puking and massive hangovers. But it's worth it I guess. There's nothing worse than boredom and nothingness that usually wraps up to be void called 'my life'.. Anywho. till then, bye bye. peace and I'm out..

Halfway weekend.. tough tough...

Been to the dentist today. Good news - most of my teeth are in perfect shape, bad news - 3 not.. Well actually 2 now, 1 has been fix0red. Cool. I was really afraid cause believe it or not except for check-ups this was my first visit to the dentist [and I haven't been for a check-up in 4 years].

I went to Leroy-Merlin to get new bath tub tap, 1) got fux0red one, 2) I forgot to stamp the warranty so I can kiss my money goodbye. I also bough little access doors to water meters.. and I haven't noticed one of the corners was damaged.. fuck..

I was supposed to go to the club today, not only that but help with organization and I backed out - reason - no money! :(

What else. I asked cute girl I met yesterday at the pub, and she stood me up.. what a weird day.. and it wasn't bad. I really enjoyed it believe me or not. Maybe cause of the anesthetic I was given in the morning at the dentist, or maybe it was just really interesting day.. Now it's almost midnight, new day comes and although it might be better, I don't think it will top today when it comes to being interesting..

In other news - you can now spy on me! :) I've installed webcam and link should be posted in menu on the right. Yeah, webcams are perverted sfw ;P :))) have fun, peace I'm out ;)

No, I am not fat bastard.. as intended..

I'm just stupid. Oh, and I'm a coward.. It came to me in a dream [for real].. In this dream I had someone I know stood up against and I backed out, although I had better chance against the evildoer [yeah, it's bushism :P]. I'm a fucking coward. Ditto. Peace, out.

Right is wrong, wrong is right, worse man wins

Do you sometimes have that feeling when you do something right that it's wrong, and opposite?

I did something that was good, honest and right [in my opinion at least that is], yet I feel bad cause this may have bad outcome. Shit, I hate this kind of situations.

I spoke yesterday to a friend of mine, the most honest and loyal man I know. We came to conclusion [after few beers] that being good guy 1) sucks, 2) have no future. What's the use of being good, noone will care about it, you miss opportunities cause you have stupid things like 'rules'. Most of all it makes us, good guys, unhappy. So what's the fucking point? There's no point, nothing, nada, zip. Fuck it.

So will Jackal be fat bastard? Who knows... maybe.. we'll see ;) Till then, bye bye.

Old friends

I've met two old friends yesterday. I haven't seen both in a very long time.
It's funny how time goes by. You eat at McDonalds [yeah, yeah I know] and across the room you see friend you haven't seen in 2 years. Someone you used to see on daily basis. In the pub, at the party, wherever. Then it suddenly stops.. No news, no info, nothing. Time goes by. And you meet again.

Anywho, in unrelated notice I picked interesting exerpt from Bill Hicks 'Relentless' stand up show. It's about drugs and I find it very amusing. I hope you will too, get it here..

It came to me suddenly

Drugs.... drugs man.. drugs are bad, get it?
Yet.. You look down the bottle, smoke that cig or joint, eat that pill and for a moment you are in oblivion. You're in heaven, valhalla in zzion... Wherever the fuck you want to be..

Or maybe you should just be here. I know it's dull, and not very uplifting place and very often 'here' sucks, but 'here' is the only place we've got...
Who knows.. I'm not the one to judge this. I know I am here, and I awfuly would like to be some place else. Somewhere with someone, somewhere with noone, anywhere with anyone, anywhere with noone.

Being... just being...

At one point the time and space fractures, bends and unveils wonders that were never ment to be seen.. Next time you try to find that point... Please be advised, this may end bad... Again.. who am I to judge.. I will seek this point again.. and again.. until the end :(

Living among people

Living among people is like swimming in the ocean.
You are surrounded by water, yet you can die from thirst...

I've been asked today why although I can have access to everything I need and desire (fun, movies, drink and dance), am I so deeply unhappy. And the above sentence came to my head.

I am meteorite, flying thru space, passing other people like planets, heading for unknown yet inevitable. Sometimes high, sometimes low, sometimes near, usually far, far away. Void behind me, void infront of me. I am passing your sight, and yet you may not notice me at all, blinded by the sun or shortsighted by clouds...

Maybe I will float away, reach some place where my existance will end or maybe I will come back many times only to remind you that I am here and I will be back again..

Outside

I feel so... weird...

All the times, that I felt like this won't end
It's for you
And I taste, what I could never have
It was from you
All the times, that I've tried
My intentions... Full of pride...
But I waste, more time than anyone

/Staind-Outside/

Mein Lebenschmerz

What can I say. Mein Schmerz des Lebens, goes on. And until Det Tod comes for me I have to stick around.
Surrounded, pressed against the wall, doing things against my will.
Trying to find way, trying to meet right people, avoid wrong ones. Making decisions. One after other. Only to find out that they were all wrong.
I looked back. A year have passed.. One year, one month and one day. And few hours. Since I had my chance to turn my world around. I even tried, but I have failed along the way. 3 months into that 1Y1M1D period it was going well. I even had chance to change some things about my life. Chance I didn't see at the moment, and the chance I eventually missed. Lebenschmerz goes on.

I'm eating candy bar I bought downstairs
Label on inside of the wrapping says "Sorry, that's the wrong bar".
.. I didn't win.. again.
Maybe among dozens of candy bars in the shop downstair there's a "You have won 3000 Euro" bar..
And maybe someone will pick it up, eat the candy bar and threw away the wrapping.. 3000 Euro will be lost.. Nobody wins, nobody is happy. But that's not bothering me. That's just luck, but many things are not luck, but decissions.

Again and again. I continue to make wrong decissions. Some of them are not my fault, many are. And being fully aware of the wrong decisions I have made, situations I have made them into and the rest of it I feel really bad about myself, my life.. and that is my Lebenschmerz..

peace

Man from UNKLE

Just kidding, I'm not about that cheesy show.

Actually I'm listening to recent UNKLE album - Never never land.
Aaaand I watched Scary Movie 3 yesterday [finally].
What can I say, I can go both with high brow and low brow entertainment..
I've read recently on ./ about this guy, Michael Hanscom sacked from Microsoft after posting photo of Macs G5 being delivered to Microsoft facility he used to be employee of. I think M$ went little over the edge with this one, I think that he should get some kind of the reprimend but sacking him was way too harsh.
A friend of mine, Hardcore [renowned DJ btw] was sacked as SysAdm at Gazeta Wyborcza daily after his boss read on usenet about some comment of HC abusing drugs at some party.

In other news. Fox News denies any plans of sueing Fox [yeah, it's same happy company] over Simpsons episode mocking Fox News and it's devotion to Republican party. But in every even false story there's a seed of truth. I don't think Matt Groening just went on national radio and spoke out of his ass, come on :)

Blah. Whatever. Till then, bye bye.

Blood, gore, and grotesque

What does Quentin Tarantino and Chris Cunnigham have in common?
For start they are both acclaimed directors that have tendency to push the limits as far as possible.
 

I've been to the cinema yesterday to see QT newest flick - Kill Bill vol. 1. And I have to say I liked this movie very much.
It's a really weird movie but if you like a lot of blood and unnecessary violence - wohay, it's a winner.
Here's my first reaction, just as I came home yesterday:

[00:00] <jackal> kill bill is a nice movie
[00:00] <jackal> tarantino at it's best
[00:00] <jackal> gore and flesh
[00:00] <jackal> kitsch and genious
[00:01] <jackal> if you make kitsch so absorbing, interesting and inspired at some point you cross the line you can't call it kitsch anymore
[...]
[00:03] <jackal> it was not violent
[00:03] <jackal> it was too bloody to be violent
[00:03] <jackal> at some point you cross the line that was ment for horror movies
[00:04] <jackal> in horror movies gore and flesh is all there is to it
[00:04] <jackal> [kitsch horror movies that is]
[00:04] <jackal> what makes them funny


Yes. Kill Bill is bloody funny (punt intended), if you liked previous Tarentino movies (or his protegees Roberto Rodriguez) you will like this one too.

But what does it have to do with Cunnigham? According to SkyCAM (aka. german berserker :P) this movie is at points grotesque, and I have to give him that he's right. At some points this movie goes far beyond good ol' katana slashing, steps over cold body of B-class horror movies and becomes so grotesque that in the most wicked way it becomes funny thru the violence and bloodshed. I can't wait for 'Kill Bill vol.2' if it will ever happen, as well as for new Cunningham sick vids. 'Come to daddy' :)

I'm antimatter, I don't matter

Hey, this song is nice!
You don't believe me? Listen to new album from DA MAN - Tricky.
Don't bash me, I know it's old news, but hey, there are some people who still believe that Iraq had weapon of mass destruction.

In other news. I've been out for a beer, first time in like a week or two. I'm flat broke, so I can't go to the pub so often :/ I'm in little debt [apart from big debt, I owe Pawel a lot of money]. Quick reminder - I borrowed 20 zl from Robert, fiver from Edyta and fiver from Jasio. 30 zl.. so far. and I'm week away from pay day. Thank god I got nothing for that week, yet if I had money I could think about going to Lodz for EZ Rollers or something..

OK, now back to work. I have few things to do, and they won't do themselve.. Till then, bye bye.

>> warsaw << 68 >>

>> warsaw << 68 >> - Let the night hit your heart / I know that this is what you deeply want / tell me what you feel on the road curve / You leave me 68 tears...

Now this is odd track. Very nice odd, track. While it sounds like an oldie infact it's a new track from very promising new project of polish rock scene oldtimers.

Although most of you won't understand a bit from the song, you can go to Warsaw homepage and d/l it for free. Woohoo.. free track! :P :) Till then, bye bye.

Get flashed get mobbed

C'est moi!: Moi, and Madej, and Wojtek (Madej's in-law) [left to right]. First things first. Flash mobs got to Poland (you may like it or not. I like it). It's not a new idea to gather and do silly things. I call it partying. But when you gather complete strangers, give them some absurd task you can sit and watch people go by in complete astound (is it a word anyway?). Today second evah flashmob was held in Warsaw, and although turnout was low, I hope it will become popular, cause it's helllotta fun.

In other news. I played Max Payne 2 and HL2-CS:CZ beta [yeah. ANON rel] today. I must say. Props to MP2 guys. I loved the first part, it was outrageous. This one is good too, maybe it didn't bring me to my knees as first part did, but fact is that once I launched it, I played for 8 hours straight. 3-4 more hours and I'm done with the game. It's short, but hell. I don't mind it at all. My favorite thing in MP - dream sequence.. Well.. In MP2 is terrific. I love it. Looks like someone is doing too much acid ;P LSD is bad mmmkay? :P :))
Now.. I wonder if MP3 will come out.. Cause you know.. You know..

As for HL2.. Ugh.. This is.. Well.. Little disappointing. VALVE.. Please.. Guys.. Ask Rockstar ppl how to make games.. The overhyped HL2 engine so far is quite uninteresting.. Unlike in Max Payne... Game is unoptimized - look what Rockstar did to GTA:VC! It runs on Voodoo3 for Pete's sake! Valve. Until you come with reasonable game, I refuse to buy it :P

Till then, bye bye :)

Music can be cheap! Well...

According to this piece of news [polish only, sorry], retail CDs can be cheap [or even dirt cheap].
Polish music industry always whining [just as music industry in any given country] will have to fight a new war.. with artists and independent releases.. It's not said per se, but this is how it looks like. New.. very promising trend on the market...

Ich Troje, crap pop band started the revolution it seems. I was never too fond of that perticular group but this seems to a step in good direction. Their previous album was sold at 29,99 PLN (~ $6), which is half the price you usually have to pay for major label CDs here. Then there was this nice CD compilation by one of the nationwide radio stations sold at 9,99 PLN (~ $2).. Now the upcomming solo album from infamous Michal Wisniewski, Ich Troje frontman is going to be sold for 5 PLN (little over $1)... I wonder what overhead will have retailers on that. Even with 30% they usually add, it will be still dirt cheap.

Funny enough Michal Wisniewski is well known for his strong views on piracy. Once during live interview he described people making illicit copies as 'fucking thieves' [sic!].
Now.. I don't say all CDs should be sold for $1... but at $3-$4, I don't see how pirates would go down with price...
On the other hand, some of you remember the famous Massive Attack '11 Promos' DVD.. Retailers made MA label to increase price to match regular music DVDs...

Oh wel.. till then, bye bye.

Work work work

Work makes you free.. right. I'm little sick of the work. I can't say I bust my ass, but it's little annoying.. That's all. First thing I do when I finish all the projects is pack up and go for a holiday or something. Dunno where. I'd love to go to some nice, warm country.. But that means a lot of money, which I don't have ;/ Crap... oh well.. and I want to go on a little road trip next summer.. well.. fuck it all.. till then, bye bye

FOAMY'S RANT

Listen to FOAMY'S RANT. Somehow I feel bad about myself... Maybe that little freaking cat/gerbil/whatever the hell that is, is right. Maybe I also validate myself by being [or rather by not being] in relationship.. No inner strength whatsoever.. Till then, bye bye.